Two Ways of Getting Through Hard Times

Jeff Warren
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May 19, 2023
Two Ways of Getting Through Hard Times

When times are hard, I need a model for managing myself. I call it the Warrior and the Caregiver. Each offers something beneficial, and they need each other for balance. 

The Warrior is the part of you that goes out into the world. The Warrior dons her doctor scrubs every day, takes a deep breath, and steps into the ER. The Warrior hears her baby cry in the night, and even though she hasn’t slept in six months, she gets up to offer comfort. Or, to give a recent and highly mundane example, the Warrior, cleaning up the kitchen while fried after a long day, breathes through the seething rage at that over-sized ceramic plate that refuses to fit in the cupboard – after trying five times to put it away! I hate that plate!

Obviously we’re not only talking about frontline heroics. The Warrior gets up in the morning.

The Warrior is where we expand our natural capacities in the face of challenge, just as our chests expand on the inhale. This is not about being tough—on the contrary, too much resistance creates friction, inside and out. It’s about opening. In a dignified and courageous way, we accept and acknowledge our fear, our anger, our grief. The more we totally accept, the more space inside we create.

The Warrior, in other words, is all about equanimity.

Equanimity is a superpower. Not only is it the skill for managing the moment, it is also the skill for transforming the self. With every pulse of equanimity, we dissolve old limits and conditioning. With every pulse of equanimity, we retrain our nervous systems away from reactivity and towards space.

We can observe this in meditation, where each push and pull of aversion and distraction is a tiny test of equanimity. We practice staying centered and present in the formal setting of meditation, so that we’re more likely to stay centered in our daily lives.

There is something thrilling and heroic about aspiring to this kind of Warrior-hood. Also – let’s be honest – something a bit deranged. Because who can actually live up to this? Something is always lurking just around the corner, waiting to kick our butt. We all find ourselves losing it one way or another. Because we’re human. And humans have limits.

What happens then?

Then our Caregiver comes in. If the Warrior is our in-breath, expanding our capacity for whatever’s arising, the Caregiver is our long, full out-breath: sighhhhhhhh.

The Caregiver is where we accept our limitations, back away from intensity, and take care of ourselves. It helps us turn to the places we feel nurtured. Maybe that looks like taking five minutes to lie on the floor and focus on your exhale. Or maybe it’s going for a walk in nature. Or maybe it’s bingeing on Netflix. Who am I to critique your coping strategies? What matters is the reset. What matters is giving the nervous system time to settle and relax, so that you’re more likely to hold it together through the next frustration.

The Caregiver’s strengths are discernment and self-compassion. Discernment to notice when you’re beginning to get crispy. And compassion to care about that. Compassion and humility – because our limits will not look the same as someone else’s. The Caregiver knows how to get real: Where am I right now? What are my limits? And what have I learned about how to care for myself?

Meditation is an essential part of this training. Mindfulness helps us see when we’re at our edge. It teaches us what being over-extended feels like in our bodies and our minds. And compassion practices help us accept that it’s ok to pull back, to take care. They show us what care looks like.

We need both the Warrior and the Caregiver. Meditation helps build each capacity, and helps us discern which is needed at a particular moment.

Of course, life often doesn’t let us choose. Very often we will be forced to stay with some challenge well past the point where we should be taking care of ourselves. So we do the best we can, and hope any screw-ups are outweighed by our positive efforts. This, too, is an equanimity practice. 

Our life itself, with all its unpredictability and factors that are beyond our control, is the training ground.

Jeff Warren is a meditation teacher trained in multiple traditions, including with renowned teacher Shinzen Young. Jeff is the co-author of the New York Times Bestseller "Meditation for Fidgety Skeptics" and the founder of the Consciousness Explorers Club, a meditation adventure group in Toronto.

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